I have gone from constantly making sure I have a visitor every minute of the day, to barely answering text messages. I feel like there is now so much information for my brain to process, that I no longer need a distraction for it. Before I wanted nothing more than to shut my brain off, which is why I tried to occupy myself all the time. Now I have way too much going on inside my head – so my thoughts are kind of cancelling each other out. There are too many thoughts to filter through so now I do not constantly think about “what is wrong with me” all the time. So when people ask me how I am and what not, it forces me to go through my thoughts and try to sort them out. Mentally exhausting. It may not be the best way to handle it (ignoring the world), but it works for me. Now I keep it to one visitor a day. So I only have to think about it once and then I can relax for the rest of the time. So I apologize to anyone who has reached out and have not heard back from me. I am slowly coming around to getting in touch with everyone…. but by “slowly” I mean “very slowly”.