Part one of my “two steps to clear” is now complete. My colonoscopy last week showed no new growths! I was nervous leading up to this of course. But when I was awoken from the nurse, she was chipper and kind. Once she told me to get dressed and the doctor would be with me shortly – I knew I was in the clear. Such a different experience from the last. Now I have a scan in September and that is the big one. I am trying to keep myself busy until then. I know that the wait in my surgeons office a few days following the scan will feel like the longest of my life. Now I just need to mentally picture him saying the word “clear” over and over again in my head.
What comes up a lot at doctor visits and in all the groups I attend is the phrase, “the new normal”. Seems to be very popular amongst the cancer world. During a group session this evening the topic came up, and I heard various ladies discuss their idea of their “new normal”. It varied a little but it had the same thread throughout – in their life pre-cancer they were able to do things that post-cancer they cannot. I began to think as the circle discussion slowly moved in my direction – why do we have to use this phrase in a negative manner? What if the “new normal” is a positive. Pre-cancer I did not eat healthy on a regular basis. What if my “new normal” is to consistantly strive for healthy choices. Pre-cancer I would always flip flop working out. What if my “new normal” is to do something active daily. Pre-cancer I was quick to judge others. What if my “new normal” is to be more understanding and respectful. Why can we not choose to be better post-cancer? What if my “new normal” is a mentally and physically healthier and happier life? I think that is something to be excited about.